Sad Day

So I managed to survive another round of layoffs... Its always so rough to see people you work with everyday go. I didnt even know this one was coming today. But I am thankful for the people who watch over me and keep me protected. These are the times when you want to go home and just talk about it with someone you love, like your man, I will go home to my bear... the bear that I will burn to ashes by the end of this week. LOL. Well, even more of a reason for me to be out! All this chaos in my life is happening all at once, so that I can go away and be able to dust everything off and come back BRAND NEW. I am so thankful that I still remain employed and so thankful that I have my family and thankful that I am out in just a couple of days!!! xoxo

Sound Off

Haven't written much lately- I haven't been in a great place these past two days and I have no one to blame but myself.. which sucks even more. I made decisions that unfortunately weren't the right ones and because of this- I'm dying inside. I should have walked away a long time ago, ignored the calls, ignored the pleas, ignored the lies. But I didn't, and now I sit here, shell shocked not knowing how I got to this place. The truth always comes out and I think that's something everyone should realize, it always catches up to you. Karma is real and proven and when you place so much hurt and pain on someone for no reason, just selfish reasons, know that you will be paid back for it, in more ways than one. My thinking right now is a little irrational, but I cant act on emotion, I have to think about consequences and I am so much better than that. I know better. I haven't slept for two days straight, my tummy is getting bigger and bigger and vacation cant come soon enough. Come Thursday I will be in a better place- physically/emotionally. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I'm just not sure how many more beatings I have to take for this to be all over. . This whole situation is gross- disgusting-repulsive.

Stripper Mom?

So Nadya aka OctoMom has just revealed that she was a topless dancer... for ONE day. Right. She said once she learned that she had to give lap dances she turned down the job! This lady is such a hot mess, she even fired her nannies! Who is going to help her now?

This is what the National Enquirer is reporting:

"I had not even kissed a boy. But I entered a dance/lingerie contest in a club near my home. I danced and paraded in lingerie. Then, when I was 19, I went to a gentleman's club and performed as a topless dancer. But I only did it one night. I quit when I found out I was expected to perform lap dances on the customers."

Dont Jinx It!!!

So Kim K (one of my faves) - isn't even engaged to her hot ass man, Reggie Bush yet, but she is already having meetings with designer Vera Wang! Damn, talk about being thirsty! That girl doesn't know it, but she's about to jinx herself... unless there is something that we don't know... hmmm... can she already be engaged??? Stay tuned!

Ban the Brazilian?

New Jersey is trying to put a ban on the Brazilian Wax!!! Are they serious? So they are now trying to tell us how we should mow our own lawn? Who does that? You want us to walk around looking crazy? Leave us alone! Say no to Bush!!! LMAO!

Read the article below- Crazy
http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5hYJA5QKwvKKvIytyaA3Jo2635SggD9719Q1G3

Moving on up....

Seems like the economy hasn't affected Mariah Carey in any way, word is that she made an offer on one of the most expensive mansions in the US~ 125 Million dollars!!! Nick Canon did good for himself...

So Sad...

Natasha Richardson's family took her off life support yesterday after being brain dead. This is so scary, the fact that she fell, got up, was smiling and fine for about an hour, and then everything changed, and now shes gone, leaving behind her actor husband, Liam Neeson and 2 children. This is why we have to live each day to the fullest and make sure that we tell the people we love how much they mean to us. Tomorrow is NEVER GUARANTEED, we must not take it for granted. I always make sure I tell my mom that I love her everyday, my family and when I was with someone, I would tell him too much! But... Its never too much, when they might not be here tomorrow...

RIP

Last Night...

Was so great! I met up with one of my old friends and went out right around my house. It was so nice to catch up and best of all ... talk business. Great minds think alike... and think MONEY... It felt so good to have someone near me with the same mindset.... Now is the time... time to create, time to take risks, take leaps of faith... Cant wait to get that 'ol spark back!!! Come June...

BTW- I've been noticing something about myself, thats not so great... my tolerance for alcohol has been climbing... I'm up to 5 martinis and good to go... Not Good... I need another vice,lol

To Doggie Heaven he goes...

Oprah's newly adopted cocker spaniel died last night. She only had him for a weekend! She hasn't had much luck with doggies lately, maybe she should get a cat, or a fish... Sugys fish, Oscar, is the longest living Goldfish!!!

RIP Ivan...

I'm obsessed...

Just one of the fabulous pictures from their new GQ magazine spread... Check out this months GQ for more pics and a peek inside their relationship...

http://men.style.com/gq/features/landing?id=content_8517

My new Favorite Couple!!!

A couple that vacations together stays together! LMAO... ok,ok I'm being extra, but so what? I can!!!

They just look so happy... We used to be that way.

Weekend Wrap-Up

OMG Sugys birthday had me soooo tired!!! 20 11yr olds= MADNESS. She had such a great time and that's what counts. So it was my time to have fun on Saturday... My cousin came to pick me up around 830, and we went to a place in Edgewater called "Sabor", everything was great! We had some churrasco with yuca and guacamole dip! The music was awesome!!! Of course music runs in my blood, I make no excuses, move out my way when a song I feel comes on!!!
The funniest part was when all of a sudden my cousin seems distant and dazed, then I asked her what was wrong and she told me to put my stuff away because in her words 'its going down!" LMAO!!! I was dying... later I found out that some older woman were talking sh*t about me and making it blatantly obvious and that pissed off my cousin. Please- I wasn't there to take your man, I was there with my cousin to have a good time. Besides, if you had taken the extra time to fix your hair and maybe put some mascara on, then maybe you would've felt better about yourself. Its nice to be able to go out with family and have a good time. I stayed at her place, and she woke my ass up at 8am Sunday morning talking about, lets go get breakfast! I don't even eat bfast ( but I did!)... We must do it again soon- thanks cuzo for having my back ( next time keep the limit to 2 Mojitos!!! HAHAHA)

Like?

I don't wear sneakers alot, if I do, they are Jordan's or Air Forces, and then last year, I thought I was being cute by getting matching Adidas... But these sneakers right here, I would make an exception for... I'm kinda digging them, plus they have some Pink!!! Got an extra $1140 to blow on Kanye's sneaks for LV? Get at ya girl!! xoxo

You wanna be my rebound???

So I went out last weekend and had a pretty nice time, met a guy, not marriage material, but just regular nice guy,we exchanged numbers and that was it. So I get a text last night from him telling me that he wants to be the one to help me get over my ex, he wants to be the "new" man in my life!!! Who does that? You met me ONCE and already feel as if you want to be in my life?So you mean you want to be my rebound? You want to be the man that I pretend to like only to kill time and try to get my mind off the only man I really want? You want to be the man to be used to get some free dinner and a movie ( which btw I don't even do movies!) Seriously? Nothing good can come out of a rebound, can it? My girls are telling me that I'm not giving it a fair chance... but is it "fair" to be out with him and thinking about someone else... looking into his eyes and seeing a different man? Thats not fair. I don't know, I got so cheesed out by that text, I wanted to barf, like he doesn't know me from a hole in the wall. How long before you have to move on? Damn, there needs to be some kind of guidelines for this bs heartbreak. Honestly the only thing right now that can help me get over my ex is time and a little R&R in the M.I.A!!!

This is Sad...

The NFL'ers that were lost at sea, apparently lost their fight with life because they went crazy. The Nationial Enquirer came out with the story today. Heres how the only survivor tells the story:
“Schuyler told the Coast Guard that Smith became hysterical, screaming, ‘No one is coming to help us! We will never be saved!’” said the source“As the men watched beggin him to stop, Smith took of his life jacket and threw himself into the water. He slipped into the sea and … soon, the others couldn’t see him anymore.”

“Cooper woke up [one day] and just flipped out. Schuyler said he was acting ‘insane’, screaming and throwing punches at him and Bleakley ….“After the barrage, Cooper went calm and … stripped off his life jacket and dove into the water. The other two never saw him come up.”

Just three hours before getting rescued, Bleakley lost his mind,” said the source. “Imagining that he saw lights in the distance … Bleakley jumped into the water to swim to the light.”“About 15 yards away from the boat, he removed his life jacket … swam about 50 more yards and disappeared under water.”

RIP

THIS is what started it all...

So the mystery lady is revealed... The 3 page text message to Chris was sent from his, get this, 40 YEAR OLD manager!!! Her name is Tina Davis and she supposedly was having sexual relations with CB when he was just 16!!! When RiRi saw the message that's when she popped off, and Chris hit back... Looks to me like Tina should be investigated for statutory rape!!!!

She did what!!!???

Tampa Bays Buccaneers Linebacker Geno Hayes was stabbed in the head with scissors then stabbed in the neck with a kitchen knife by his girlfriend, after she found out he was running around acting a fool with a jumpoff... here's how St.Petersberg Times is reporting it:

Shevelle Bagley, 19, faces an aggravated battery charge after deputies say she grazed his head with a pair of scissors, then stabbed him in the neck with a kitchen knife.The incident happened in a residence where Carter said the two live. Deputies don't know what the argument between Hayes and Bagley was about.

Ain't nothing like a woman scorned...

LMAO! Trump strikes again!

Want to know what Donald Trump thinks of Rihanna getting back with CB?
Here you go...
"She better get the hell out. If she goes back, she's a loser, and she doesn't deserve to have any future successes," Donald shared with reporters.

Wow... someone sure feels strongly about this... so Extra... He's just mad because he's going bankrupt again!

S.O.S

For those of you that know me, know that I will pay for fly sunglasses... I love em..

Please help me find these... Stat!!!

Rumor has it...

That Jennifer Hudson is pregnant!! Congrats if its true! Thats the way it happens sometimes... a life was taken from her, and now God is giving her new life... thats beautiful, a mothers void will never be filled, but a child is the most beautiful blessing. Whats up with her husband though? Trying to be the new hulk? Who does that? He aint even eye candy either... w/e I guess as long as they love each other...

Blurry Saturday...

My Saturday started off great, my girl took me for some cupcakes (see previous entry), then we went to Barnes & Nobles and killed about 3 hours... oh, how I love people watching... btw- I realized its a great spot to meet quality men, just beware if they are in the self-improvement section longer than an hour!!! It was so quiet and relaxing, opposite of what my night was...

At about 10pm my other friend calls me and asks to go out, feeling like its about time to have some fun and get loose ( the weather helped quite a bit too)... You know, everyone gets crazy when the warm weather comes around... I had one mission in mind- have fun, let loose and maybe meet a cutie or two... feeling like it was going to be a good night, I took a shower, blew my hair out, I hadn't ate all day besides the cupcake in the morning, so my stomach was looking nice and flat, got all decked out, 5inch red patent leather heels and all!!! I was ready...

We ended up going into Hoboken and everyone everywhere was drunk, earlier that day was their St.Patricks day parade, so you can imagine how wasted everyone was, those Irish can drink! Without going into too much details.. but maybe 3 very strong apple martinis(had to get the green in there somehow!) I was done... I had a great night, got home about 8:30am that morning... needless to say I was in bed for most of Sunday.

For the first time in a long time, I was living in the moment and my thoughts were far away from any sad memories... maybe its time to make some new good ones...

Have Fun? Check

Let Loose? Check

Meet a cutie or two? Check

Well, mission accomplished.

Guilt Free Cupcakes!!!

Saturday afternoon, my girl picked me up and took me to the cutest cupcake spot ever!!! Its in Rutherford,NJ. Its a vegan cupcakery, so their cupcakes are 100% dairy and egg free, meaning cholesterol free!!! I went in their a skeptic... how are you going to have a dairy free cupcake? Let me tell you... it was the best cupcake ever!!! You would never be able to tell the difference! I had a "White Room" cupcake and a small coffee... This place was so pleasant, I think I might make it an every Saturday morning thing... Thanks J, for letting me in on this little gem!!!

Check it out...

http://www.sweetavenuebakeshop.com/index.html

RIP

12 Year Anniversary...

This is just Exquisite...

For Barbie's 50th Anniversary, Karl Lagerfeld has designed a line for Barbie!!! The collection will be displayed, according to Collette, between March 9-15, at 213 Rue Saint-Honore, Paris

I need me one of these... asap.

More RiRi/CB Update...

Its getting a little tired, but I must inform you all of the latest...here it goes. These are notes obtained from a detective working on the case:

*Rihanna read a three-page text message on Brown's phone from a woman.(What do you expect from a 19yr old R&B superstar? Not to have groupies around? C'mon now)
*An argument followed. Brown allegedly tried to force Rihanna out of the car.
*Brown then allegedly shoved Rihanna's head against the passenger window(Maybe thats where her horns came from??? I thought he smashed her head on the dashboard, guess I was wrong). Brown punched her, then continued punching Rihanna while driving.(How was it that he managed to drive and punch her at the same time and NOT get into an accident?)
*Blood splattered all over Rihanna's clothing and in the interior of the car. Her mouth was filled with blood. Brown allegedly told Rihanna, "I'm going to beat the **** out of you when we get home. You wait and see."(Sounds like a LifeTime movie)
*Rihanna called her assistant and left a message saying, "I am on my way home. Make sure the cops are there when I get there." Brown allegedly then replied, "You just did the stupidest thing ever. I'm going to kill you."(She did do a stupid thing... why call the cops if your gonna just end up going right back, dumb chick...all this for what? For nothing)
*The report also says Brown punched Rihanna, bit her on her ear, her fingers and put her in a headlock.

Ugh.... Overload.

Update...

So a while back, I spoke about how Virgin Megastore in Times Square was closing and how sad I was because it was dear to my heart... but now I read that ALL Virgin Megastores in the US are closing! Wow, that's rough, I know there wont be any stores that could compare to Virgin, it'll be weird not to see all those crazed fans lining up on the sidewalk to see their favorite artists. I guess all good things must come to an end... Again though, the brightside... 50% off everything!!!!

I say we Pray... Pray!!!

I was reading Glamour magazine and came across an interesting poll that they ran... 1/3 of Glamour's readers admit they have prayed for a boyfriend!!! I am not alone!!! Boy, do I pray... every single night without fail. Pray for the right man to come along and swoop me off my Colombian ass! Now that I've had my taste of what a bad boyfriend is like, I'll definitely be able to tell when the good one comes around. Dont act ladies, there is nothing wrong with a little divine intervention, as long as thats not the ONLY thing you pray for! You know... the Lord says
Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you...

Cosmo Time!!!

Was reading this article and thought this might be useful for all you ladies that are in my shoes... So the question we always ask ourselves... How do we attract better men???

Here are some tips:
*Men who claim they fell in love with you at first sight(and plays Luther for you-know they did it for the ones before you and the ones that will come after you) or pour on the charm immediately are often trying too hard to win you over, hiding the fact that they have no real potential to develop a relationship naturally.
* Look for early in the relationship: He gets very cozy on the first date, becoming inappropriately touchy-feely; he's refreshingly talkative, but you realize he actually commands most of the conversation, rarely asking you questions about yourself; or he "futures" you on date one or two, using a sweet phrase like "someday we should drive to the mountains to see the snow" (this indicates lack of authenticity or a desire to sell something).
*Another trick to use once you've gone out a few times: Check out his apartment. If booze figures prominently and he's all about multiple flat screens and toys like video games and a pool table, he could be a player.(The porn collection doesnt help either...Damn, this article should have come out 2.5 yrs ago!)

A sign that he could be "a good one"-
* If he mentions he's close with his family. That means he's more apt to be a stable, loving person who wants to make a commitment. (Editors Note: Its nice if he mentions his family, and cares about them and treats his mom right, thats real nice... but when he becomes Captain Save'em, run for the hills!!! Its one thing to be YOUR man, but when you have to share him with his entire family, now thats a different story!)

Regret...

re·gret
(r-grt)
1. To feel sorry, disappointed, or distressed about.
2. To remember with a feeling of loss or sorrow; mourn.
v.intr.
To feel regret.n.
1. A sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone.
2. A feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different.


My feelings today... I know I said no more love stories, at least until I find a happy one to write about. But lately I have been thinking back, on what is now my most notorious night, and wondering what would my life be like if I hadn't gone out that night... Circa '06

I would have rather swallowed...

than have lost my engagement ring...
So who's bright idea was it to propose to his girlfriend by putting the ring in a Wendys milkshake? Apparently that was the case for Reed Harris... couldn't wait to propose his original way, so he slipped the ring into her milkshake. At Wendys with their friends, the girls decide to have a race on who can finish their milkshake first(good idea), anyway the chick GULPS the entire milkshake along with her ring! Reed couldn't believe it, he looked into everyones cups and nothing. They take her to the hospital and find the ring in her stomach! 3 days later... nature took its course and she was finally able to wear her ring. Click on the link below to read this stupidity in its entirety...
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29462344?GT1=43001

I Relapsed...

I fell into loves deadly abyss of addiction on Saturday night. I really don't want to speak on this. But I have failed myself, I'm disappointed because still... I leave empty handed.

More pics from DVF!!!

I called it!

So word is that RiRi is set to testify on behalf of CB this week! She's going to take some blame in what happened. HAHAHA.. so funny. I love it! Its crazy the things that love makes us do, and sometimes, honestly, you just cant help it. We all must learn from our own mistakes, one way or another. I hope nothing but the best for those two.